Friday, May 2, 2008

sunday scribblings prompt

forgive me, for not being good enough. for not being perfect enough, or innocent enough. i have tried my best to be the perfect wife, mother, sister, daughter, lover, friend...but in the end i fear i have not been enough. all those times i thought i might hate you more than i love you, forgive me. for that night you had to come looking for me because i didn't meet my curfew, forgive me. it was a mistake when i blamed you for all my problems, for not being there for me when i needed you most, forgive me. oh and for all those c's i got on my report cards through the years, please forgive me for not trying hard enough. i can't imagine what you must think when i just lay on the couch crying for no reason, please darlings forgive me for not being strong enough. to those that i love the most, i sometimes leave because i'm afraid to stay, forgive me.

4 comments:

paisley said...

i think any bout with emotion or insecurity or depression must be magnified by 1000 percent by having to interact with others... i don't know how you people do it... when i am in a funk,, i cloister,, and write and nurse myself,, pamper myself back to "health" i have no time or inclination to serve or care for others,, my first priority is and always will be self....

i know how that must sound,, but for me,, it is the only thing that has ever worked....

gautami tripathy said...

Stop trying hard enough. You are what you are. You family accepts that..

kindred

anthonynorth said...

A good family can never forgive. This is because there IS never anything TO forgive. They accept you for what you are.
It's as simple as that.

Granny Smith said...

They not only have no need to forgive; they have forgotten the incidents that fill you with guilt. Focus on your own needs and growth, and trust that your family supports your efforts.